There are no excuses....

I've been distracted and haven't been keeping up. So, my bad. Let's see what has been going on, shall we?

February came and went...not much happened.

March: Worked. Spring break was a blast though. Probably the best one I've ever had. Spent a night with my friend Laura. Met up with a bunch of friends and went to the St. Patrick's day parade on Greenville Ave and to see the Toadies. Make that time number one this year. lol. (saw them three times last year) Spent time with my parents and my nieces. Went to a free Stars game =) I went and spent two days with my best friend Becca and her husband Jeff. Spent St. Patrick's day with them....and we had a blast. Spent all day hanging out and playing games. I went to mom's house for a few days and saw my niece Ainsley and her parents, my close friends Megan and Aaron. Then, the fun week ended and work started back up....boo. lol.

April: Thus far has been pretty uneventful. Went to a wedding last weekend with Becca, Jeff and their friend Sam....who's now my friend too. LOL. It's hard not to spend a weekend away with someone and not make a connection. The wedding was in Galveston, and it was probably one of the best weekends I've had in a long time. Work is winding down for the year...I'm dreading summer, other than my two weeks off! lol. I will not dread that. In fact, I'm almost to a point where I am going to decide when I want to take my two weeks off and what I'm going to do for them...even if it's just go hang at dad's pool or go spend time in Lubbock with Becca.

I've made a decision about school, I believe. With all the uncertainty at work due to government and school funding, I've decided to postpone school for a little while longer. Going to try to take my GRE sometime this summer and apply in the fall to go next Spring...God willing I can get it all together. I know it will all work out like it's supposed to. Just got to remember that.

I've started making changes, and I am happier. And things are starting to fall into place...think I've served my time waiting in the wing...the time has come to be front and center.

Ok, well, I didn't sleep very well last night....so I'm going to go take something and go to bed...two more days this week. We can do it.

Much love.

Wow, how lazy I've been....

Ok, so....what's been happening? Well, a lot, but not really. Savvy? Haven't been good at updating, it's been since before Christmas. Soooo....I'll see how good I can do at back tracking.

Spent my two weeks off at Mom's. We had Christmas early because the nieces had to be back at their mom's for Christmas. I hardly got presents but it's okay, cause I got my AWESOME 42' flat screen TV now. Totally awesome. I may go to Ikea this weekend with the fams to get a new TV stand. Finally, I'm starting to be able to have some money left over at the end of the month....

Spent New Years Eve in Lubbock with Becca and Jeff, we had a blast. We had a ton of people at their place and we played games and stuff.

January: Ummmm....not gonna lie, it sucked pretty hard. Work was starting to get back into full swing, everything was going pretty good and the kids were behaving and then BAM! one of the guys that works in my cluster made a big boo-boo and I got "placed" on his campus to cover until a decision had been made....little did I know that it would be permanent...well, for the rest of the year. So, I went from my beloved high school to middle school. And I don't remember the kids being that much different...but they are. It's not the same. I mean, I'm doing my job and working with them as best as I can...but the school rules and dynamic is so much different than what I'm used to. I have a lot of the younger siblings of my kids though and I got a new job title and a raise...so, it's ok, I suppose. Also, I had a friend turn their back on me...and kind of out of the blue. Pretty crappy thing to do...but I've gotten over it. Better off without the drama. But, not going to lie, it was hard to adjust to.

On to more recent events: State funding for education and oh so many things now days is getting pretty rough. So, there's a good chance that my company could get the HUGE axe. There's already been horrible rumors circulating that people with my job statewide are getting pink slips or suffering huge cutbacks. Scares the living crap out of me. So, needless to say, 2011 hasn't started off real great. We've got an All Staff meeting Friday and I guess we'll see what they have to say.

So, I was home sick today and did some thinking....it's time to get this ish on track. I need to get a plan together as to what I am going to do with my future. (The following isn't really in any order) 

I think I'm starting to narrow down a choice as to what I'm going to go back to school for. Now, just got to make sure that my grades were good enough, take the GRE and get all my stuff together for applying to Grad schools.

I need a new job. A better paying job. A much better paying job. Especially if Grad school is in my plans. Not to mention, with the possible risk of being "laid off" I for sure need to have something that I'm going to be able to fall back on. I only signed a 6 month lease because I am afraid that I'll have to move if I do find a new job elsewhere...not to mention my job is pretty notorious for moving me. (This is my forth school in 3 years) That being said, it's also the fourth school that's had something WRONG with it and they stick me there. I'm pretty over it.

Anyways, there's other stuff that needs to be worked on, but I'm not putting all my stuff on the interwebs. lol. Not everyone needs to know everything about my life. Anywho, hope this finds you healthy and happy. And hopefully your 2011 isn't sucking as bad as mine thus far. It'll get better, it has got to.

Much love.

Hardcore slacking on my part....

Alright, well....as you can obviously tell my "30 thankful things" didn't really happen. I'll tell ya why. Got really busy, stressed and not to mention the holiday itself. I also got HELLLLLLLA sick the Sunday through Wednesday the week of Thanksgiving and wasn't always around a computer to update it....not sure I have the patience to post a large blog from my phone either....so yeah. So, we'll scrub it...

News from my life: Officially on Christmas break, and I'm super happy. The kiddos at work were going INSANE and driving me to the edge. lol. Hopefully two weeks away from school will restore their sanity. Other than that, work has been going really well. I got totally caught up on all my paperwork this Thursday.

Been hanging out with Kandis a lot. I've missed her so much. She got a new tattoo and I was there for it....*inside scoop* I may be getting a new one in a month or two....and I'm stoked!!! lol.

Everyone is breaking up...and honestly, for most of them, I think it's a good thing. lol. Call me a cynical single, but I'd rather be single than together with someone and miserable.

Going to spend most if not all of my two weeks off at Mom's or in Lubbock with Rebecca. I'm excited. I hated growing up out in West Texas, but it's home....and there are times when I really miss it. The simplicity, the easy going, no traffic. lol. Dad, the nieces and I are heading down tomorrow. The girls have to go back to their mom Christmas eve so we're having Christmas early. Randi and Richard are coming like the 21st, I think? And I think I'm barely getting anything this year because Mom and Dad are giving me money for a NEW TV!!! I have to come up with the rest of it...but hey, it's a huge help. I'm tired for my friend Justin always giving me crap about having "the oldest TV in the world" when it is only a few years old, like less than 10. lol. It's OK about not getting much though...I really don't need or want anything.

I need to go back to school and find a job that pays more....those are two New Years resolutions I'm gonna work on this year. I'll be sad to leave my kids, but I have to pay my bills. lol. And I miss school...God, never thought I'd say that. But I still cannot decide what I want to get my Masters in. I could go the psychology route and be an LPC. I could go the social worker route and do something...lol. Or, find something totally different to go into. This is the hardest choice I've ever had to face in my life and it sucks. Cause for once, I really don't know what I want...and I hate it.

Well, I guess this will suffice for now. I have to finish picking up my apartment, get ready, pack, load the car and head to Dad's. We're leaving tomorrow morning and have a few stops on our 4 hour drive....joyyyyyyy. lol. Hope all is well with you lovelies.

Much love.

Thankfulness cont.

So I'm wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy behind. I've been so stinkin tired though that's why I've been slacking...but here I am to continue my list!

Numero 4. I am thankful for the choices I have made in my life. Not all of them have been great ones, and some have caused me some tremendous repercussions in life, but that's a big part of it. Everyone has to find their way. Make their mistakes and learn from them. That's the point of trials and tribulations in our life....to make us a better person and to show us that we have the ability to make it through anything.

Numero 5. I am thankful for the job I have and the work I do. Now, don't get me wrong, I will complain about my job as much as the next person...but I really do love it. I like my kids and I like being an impact on their lives. I've met some parents and had some kids themselves tell me that I was such a big help to them and will be a person they will remember for always for being there for them. That's always something I wanted to do. After years of meeting kids my parents worked with that always told them and me how much them being in their lives, even for just a year or season of football or whatever, made such an impact, I'm glad to have been able to have a hand in that as well.

Number 6. I am thankful for music. Now, I can't play any instrument, dance or sing worth a damn, but I loves me some music. No matter what kind of mood I'm in or what kind of day I'm having, I can find a song or two that can lift me up.

Number 7. I am thankful for my education. And all of that goes to my parents. They both scrimped and saved and did whatever they could to make sure that I could go to college and graduate without owing a penny...and that's exactly what I did. Mom, all through college, would say that this was her biggest gift to me. An education that would help point my life in the right direction. They supported me the whole way through too. Back to the previous post, my parents are the best. :)

Number 8. I am thankful for my humor, my smile, and most of all, my laugh. Anyone that knows me, knows that I laugh all the time and most of the time for little to no reason at all. I'm sarcastic and I love it. My whole family is. It takes a lot to really get me down and depressed and I've only been really in the dumps maybe twice in my whole life. I love to smile and laugh. I love to crack jokes. I love to laugh at stupid stuff, even if it's me being dumb. I am greatful for the many, many, MANY people in my life that make me laugh daily. You know who you are. =)

Numero 9. I am thankful for memories. I like that my mind is random and associates memories with almost anything. Songs, smells, places, pictures, clothes....etc. So many things in my life are full of wonderful memories and I think that may be another reason why the previous number is such a big thing for me too....cause I can remember these things that have happened and laugh and smile about them. I cherish the memories I have made and eagarly look forward to making new memories.

Alright, well, my head is pounding and this was pretty quick and random...but I'll post more soon.

Much love.

To give thanks....

Alright, well, it's officially November. It's insane to think where 2010 went. Seems like it just started. Scary how time flies the older you get. So, on Facebook, people have started doing these "One thing a day I'm thankful for" and since I haven't had much to blog about lately (Cause life is very repetitive, most days) I've decided to turn it into a blog. So, I'm getting a late start but I'm going to do 30 things I'm thankful for this month. Be prepared, weekends will most likely be bunched together, cause I'm rarely home on weekends anymore. This past weekend being the exception because I had a dear friend in crisis...which brings me to my number one. (And to all that reads, it's it no particular order)

1. I am thankful for my friends. Life is full of craziness. Absolutely crazy, insanity. Be it work, relationships, family, health, drama of any sorts. Friends are God's little angels on Earth to help us through it all. (Family too, but we'll get to that one) I have no idea where I would be without my friends. I am lucky enough to say that I have MANY friends that I would happily do anything for, and the best part, I know that more than most of them would do the same for me.

2. I am thankful to still have my precious kitty. She's been a part of my life for over 14 years. She's the best part of my evenings. I come home, relax, she comes out and gets scratches from me. When it's bed time, I crawl into bed and before I can even lay down, she's on the foot of the bed waiting for me to get situated so she can lay right next to me. She gives me snuggles at night and first thing in the morning when I wake up. When getting ready for work, she paws me as I walk by. She watches while I get ready. I secretly think she laughs at me when I sing along with the radio. And every day when I'm leaving, she looks at me as if to say "Do you really have to go?" If only I could find a man that loving and dedicated, no? lol. Here's a picture of my crazy baby:

3. I am thankful for my parents. I've always loved my parents, but it seems like the older I get, the more I love and appreciate them. Which, I guess is a good thing because some people it takes the death of a parent to realize how much they mean. I dread that day. I emotionally depend on my parents for so much. They are my sanity, even though they drive me crazy sometimes too. But, that's part of being a parent I guess. I talk to them every day. Most of the time, more than once. Texting, email, phone calls, what have you. I still go to dinner with my Dad once a week, just like we've done for years. If I have a weekend with nothing planned, I will dash of to either one of their houses and just spend time with them. I want to make sure that I've soaked in enough time with them, but there will never be enough time. I know they'll always be with me though, no matter. I've got some friends that tease me and say they are too "attached" but it's not only them. I'm attached to my parents too. They've done far too much for me to even fathom not loving them. Hands down (and I am a little biased) they are the best parents on the planet. They taught me morals and values but also to be strong willed and willing to fight for what's right and that I am capable of doing anything I can put my mind to. They've always been supportive yet tough when they needed to be. I am thankful to have parents that care so much about me.

So with this, I wrap up...until my next post and my next thing I'm thankful for

Much love.

Do you believe in signs?

So today at work we had the Rachel's Challenge assembly for our students. Ever seen it? It's powerful stuff. Here's a short video about the overall purpose of it.




So, in the middle of it...I'm standing in the back of the auditorium listening to this guy talk about being kind and helping those around us, being compassionate to others, telling Rachel's story and all the symbols and premonitions she had in her journals and had mentioned to multiple family and friends about dying young and impacting the world, and forgiving those around us who may have hurt us and something catches my eye. I bend down before the end of the assembly and pick up a pin...and this is what it was

Now, it may seem crazy, but I just thought it was odd to find that, of all things, during the middle of this touching and moving assembly. And as the day wore on, it really made me wonder what it meant. Is it a sign that I need to have more hope? Have I become cynical and lost faith in the person I am? Mom's been encouraging me to go back to Church, is it a sign that I need to recommit to my faith?  It could just be a pin that I happened to come across and that's it. But at the moment it just seemed more meaningful than that. And I believe that everything happens for a reason *see previous blog* lol.

I'm curious to know what you think...because different takes could help to explain it more.

Ok, no mas.

Much love.

TIme to play catch up...

So I've been on a bit of a hiatus. Mainly because I've been sickly and just overall run down. It sucks getting old. (kidding) I work with teenagers and they think it's funny to tell me how old I am. Was even told I had wrinkles yesterday...that kid made my hit list. I kid. It's about that yearly time when flus and colds are rampant and I get either hella bad allergies or strep throat. This time, thus far, I just got the allergies. I seemed to have fought off strep cause up until a few days ago my right tonsil was about the size of a ping pong ball....well, felt like it. Haven't been able to sleep very well without the aid of some sort of night time remedy. Which I hate...I like my sleep all natural.

Alright, so what's been going on with me, you ask? Let's see...

I've had a couple of things change in my personal life...it's hard when things change. You get used to talking to someone every day or all the time and then you decide that you're on two different pages and then it's like *poof* I also believe that a friendship is on it's way out the door. It sucks, but it's difficult to be friends with someone that can't be friends with you. Annnnnnnnnnd that's all I'm gonna say about that. Sorry to go Forrest Gump on ya.

I cut my hair...about 3-4 inches. It went from my bra line to a little past my shoulders. It took me about a year to get it to where it was....but there just came a day where I was at work and I had just had enough and wanted a change....so I went to my little girl, and got her to chop it off.

Went from about this...

To this:

Let's see, what else? Ooooo!!! I know. One of my best friends, Miranda, got hitched a year ago and moved to North Carolina....we found out this week she's moving back to TEJAS!!! Yayay!!!!! She'll be far away still...but not near as far as NC. And when I go home to see my mom, she'll be much closer! Whoo!

Went and hung out with some of my favorite ladies last weekend, and I'm gonna get to see some of them again this weekend hopefully! We went to dinner and ended up closing the place down. It was a blast. Made me miss college and simpler times. Growing up is overrated.

I need to start seriously looking for a job that pays more. I like my job and I love the kids I work with...it's just getting harder and harder to live on the little I bring home. Dang non-profits. Dang degree I can't do jack with. Someone should have warned me. LOL. But, of course, if I had found my rich spouse by now, it wouldn't be an issue. LMAO kidding. Or am I?

I also need to figure out what I'm going to grad school for and how the heck I'm going to pay for it...some things don't require the GRE but most do....so I need to figure it out so that I can determine whether or not I even need to take the dang test.

I'm so ready for fall...ready for the cool air, sweaters, hoodies and for football to start getting real intense. My team won this week! Booyah!

And on that, I'll close...hope you have a great rest of the week and weekend, and when something more exciting happens, I'll let you know.

Much <3!!!

P.S. Goooooooooooooo Colts!!!